the anxiety broken:
after this wrecking experience, i began to seek God for his guidance. i was sick of this anxiety, and i was sick of living so afraid of change. it wasn’t until recently that i embraced my freedom.
it was january 10th of this year on a Sunday night. i came home from a church service at newspring and i was extremely anxious and depressed. my heart was overwhelmed and i didn’t know how much more i could take. i eventually talked to my parents that night and told them how extremely sad i was. i was sick of crying, and feeling so emotionally exhausted. my parents prayed for me right there on their bed and i went upstairs. but that wasn’t all. | lesson #5, “when two or more are gathered in My name, I am in the midst.” matthew 18:20 |
as i was upstairs, i heard my parents praying intensely for me. i knew something was about to happen. my burden had lifted, in fact on my mother, and she and my dad began to pray to the Father for my healing. they anointed me with oil that night, and i have never been the same since. that night, the spirit of depression and anxiety was broken that night, and the freedom found only in Him flooded my being. I am changed, and I am new!!
tomorrow will mark 6 weeks of freedom, and i cannot be happier.
ok, i promise.. last part.
today, I competed in the qualifying portion of GMTA for piano. in theory, I should’ve been extremely anxious about this. but I wasn’t. He has given me a new heart, and a new mind. “For God has not given me a spirit of fear, but of love, power, and a sound mind.” 2 timothy 1:7 Today was a huge step because now, I don’t have to worry about these steps out of my comfort zone, because I know fully now that He surrounds me with his love. There is no step I can’t take when He is holding my hand. Just like Peter walked on water, i can make it through any storm of my eyes are fixed on Him. | final lesson #6: when we step out of our comfort zone, He meets us in the middle of our situation, and He holds out hand through it all. |