First of all, I just want y’all to know before I say anything that God made you kings and queens. You are all worth the cross.
I sat for a good while trying to figure out what God wanted me to share with y’all. I kept thinking and thinking, and The Lord brought Depression to my attention. Last year, I shared part of my testimony and I wanted to do the same this year. But depression? Really God? I just didn’t want to go that deep.
1 minute later, I started typing this message about depression.
Before I dive in, I want y’all to know that these are not my words. This entire devotional is God speaking through me. I’m in no way capable of piecing together everything in this. So just know that when you hear this, this is from Abba Father, not me.
I want to take a moment to acknowledge anyone who deals with depression. Hear me out.
I believe there’s two sides to depression. There is a clinical side, and a spiritual side. For those with chemical imbalances or physical disorders, doctors and medication are definitely helpful. However, many cases of depression are spiritual in nature.
It is ineffective to medicate spiritual depression. The only true solution is deliverance from the Lord.
I can say this confidently because this is what the devil used to attack me for a year and a half. But here’s good news:
In Romans 5:8 God reminds us that
“He loved you at your darkest.”
There is always hope in God. Always. It’s dark, it’s very dark. I understand what it’s like to lock yourself in your room all day feeling so sad and not knowing why. Trying to sleep hoping the heavy feeling may slightly get a little less heavy. I know what it’s like to worry about everything under the sun and carry that weight around every day. I remember exactly how that felt. It engulfs you. It takes over your body. You’re tired all the time, exhausted from just simply breathing. Life never seems to have ups.. Just incredibly heavy downs. I’m telling you tonight, that I understand completely. It’s a very dark place, and it seems like there’s no hope, peace or joy.
As psalm 30:5 promises,
“There may be pain in the night, but joy comes in the morning.”
Now here’s a Side note: If you’ve asked God for a sign, this is it. If you’ve accepted depression, I’m telling you tonight you don’t have to carry that load. It is not your burden to carry. This is not your battle.
“Come to me all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”
There is light at the end of the tunnel.
God is asking you to let him carry that weight. Jesus died so we didn’t have to carry that load. He so longs to break your chains and give you true and unending freedom. He longs to see you free of all bondage. He longs to see you in your wildest form. But you have to be willing to be freed. You see, the reason I dealt with depression for a year and a half was because I lived in self pity as well. I was sad and it sucked.. I knew this. But I accepted it. I ironically enough wanted people to pity me instead of pray for freedom for me. Don’t be me. Don’t live in bondage for temporary compassion.
IT IS NOT WORTH IT.
The devil will try to convince you that you are alone. That your situation isn’t as bad as it seems, and that your feelings don’t matter. And the devil is strong.
But listen to this..
In Luke 11, Jesus was casting out a demon one day (this was normal for him.. Changing Water to wine.. The blind being able to see.. Completely normal stuff like that) and there were some dudes who basically said “This guy is casting out demons in the name of the prince of demons.. He’s a fake.” Jesus didn’t like this because His father is kind of the King of Kings and stuff, so he came back saying “Now what’s the point of casting out demons in the prince of demons name?”
In verse 20, he says “But if it is by the finger of God that I cast out demons, then the kingdom of God has come upon you.”
ONLY A FINGER!!!! Now THATS a powerful God! If He only has to raise a pinky to make the devil flee, what do you think His hand on your life can do? Isaiah 41:10 says, “don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my VICTORIOUS right hand.”
Satan is NO MATCH for our Mighty God. Keep this is the back of your mind.
Isaiah 53:3 says
“He was despised and rejected- a man of sorrows, acquainted with deepest grief.”
This verse right here should already give you hope. You are not alone!!!
Jesus went through the exact same struggle.
It says in Hebrews 4:15 that “He understands our weaknesses, for He faced all of the same testings we do”
I’m sure you’re thinking the same thing I was, If that is so, how did he overcome it? He trusted in His Mighty Warrior of a Father. And He wants you to do the same thing.
As for me, that was one of the hardest battles I faced. Along with struggling with depression, I battled anxiety. So I was carrying what seemed like the weight of the world on my shoulders while dealing with an attack on my heart and soul. Giving it to God almost seemed like a stupid idea, I mean.. Someone has to worry about everything right?
No. That’s not even halfway true. In fact, That’s not true at all! I found that when I truly surrendered it all to Him, I found an indescribable peace that I never even knew existed. I had heard Him called a Prince of Peace, but to know Him to be that, means so much more.
You see, all throughout the bible, He is calling us [His Bride] to Him. He knows we are hurting, he knows every pain we face.. We’ve already established this. He wants us to completely and wholly surrender even though, we are wounded. Incredibly and deeply wounded. He understands, because He was wounded, too. Imagine this:
Could you imagine seeing your son with nails that pierced his hands? His body mutilated. His blood pouring in streams from his body. And knowing it was your plan. That’s what our God did, for us, even though He knew He’d have to turn away. Because He so loved us.
John 3:16 begins by saying,
“For God so loved the world.”
“For God so loved the world.”
Just let that sink in for a second. He so loved us.
If your struggling, you need to grasp this. He loves you recklessly.
Coming from someone who struggled with depression, I can tell you that the devil will try to knock you down when you’re already down. He’ll try to convince you that God doesn’t really love you, that God won’t bring you through.
HE IS LYING.
God loves you recklessly. He wants to have a relationship with you. He wants freedom for you. He hasn’t left you.
That was something I held onto. Something I actually still hold onto. His love was my rock. My source of joy and peace.
John 3:16 goes onto say “He gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in Him will not perish, but have eternal life.”
I love how the message version says it.
“This is how much God loved the world: He gave his Son, his one and only Son. And this is why: so that no one need be destroyed; by believing in him, anyone can have a whole and lasting life. God didn’t go to all the trouble of sending his Son merely to point an accusing finger, telling the world how bad it was. He came to help, to put the world right again. Anyone who trusts in him is acquitted.”
John 3:16 & 17
If there’s one thing that I’ve learned throughout this struggle, it’s that I 100% absolutely HAD TO rely on Him. I could not have found joy in mourning, comfort through anxiety, peace in fear without knowing a mightier God was taking care of my situation. I couldn’t say it better than David did in Psalm 40:2,
“He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along.”
There’s one thing I need to clarify though.
I cannot promise you that you’ll never be prone to struggling with depression ever again. I still struggle sometimes with depression, but the key is to stand firm in the victory Jesus died for us to have. You must cling on to that!!!! And never let go!!!!!
Even though the devil may find different ways to attack you in this area, God promises in 1 Corinthians 10:13 that he will not give us more than we can bear.
“No test or temptation that comes your way is beyond the course of what others have had to face. All you need to remember is that God will never let you down; he’ll never let you be pushed past your limit; he’ll always be there to help you come through it.”
Just remember that God defeats demons with his pinky finger, and picks you up with His victorious hand.
I want you to listen to this very intently.
God has incredible plans for you, sweet brothers and sisters. The Fathers love for you is as wide as the east is from the west, deeper than the deepest ocean, and greater than anyone in this world could ever express.
“You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater then the one who is in the world.”
1 John 4:4
He made you unique. Special. And He has given you purpose that is much bigger than yourself. You are not a waste of time..
This is another thing the devil will try to tell you. To be honest, he’s been doing this to me all week. It was literally God in me that wrote this. My flesh said that this was a waste of time and that I shouldn’t do it. But although my flesh my fail, He never will. Every time I sat to write this, God would completely overflow my spirit man. His presence flooded my soul with every word written. And He reminded me of this.
“You are the ones chosen by God, chosen for the high calling of priestly work, chosen to be a holy people, God’s instruments to do his work and speak out for him, to tell others of the night-and-day difference he made for you—from nothing to something, from rejected to accepted.”
1 Peter 2:9-10 MSG
This is my night and day difference. This is what redemption and victory looks like. And this can be you. And when you surrender to Him, this WILL be you. And when you find freedom, I urge you to go tell your story to the world. Let them know how mighty and awesome our God is.
You are never too much, and you are much more than enough. He promises hope in the darkest times, and peace within the crashing waves. Just know that when you feel like you are sinking beneath the waters, He promises you the same thing He promised Jeremiah.
“They will fight against you but will not overcome you, for I am with you and I will rescue you.”
I wanted to share one last verse to close out this message.
Psalm 94:18 “When I said, ‘My foot is slipping’ your unfailing love, Lord, supported me. When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope.”
He promises this to you today. This is your chance to accept this freedom. This is your chance to entirely surrender to a God that is much bigger than what you’re struggling with. He knows, and He will come through for you as He did for me. I can guarantee that.
If you will, bow your heads.
If you want to take this chance right now to surrender your situation to God and to choose victory instead of defeat, if you want to find peace and joy in Him, if you want freedom, speak this prayer in your heart with me.
“God, you are a Mighty God. Your word declares that you are the King of Kings and the Prince of Peace. You are our Father and our best friend. I pray right now for the ones who are in spiritual bondage, Lord. I plead the blood of Jesus over them and their situation right now. I pray for peace and comfort to invade their heart and souls. I pray that chains be broken, I pray for burdens to be released, and I pray in the name of Jesus that you would do a miracle in them and through them, God, in this moment. Fill them with joy, Abba!! Fill them with your presence right now. I pray in the name of Jesus that depression has NO HOLD over them anymore, and I pray release from this spiritual attack !! I declare Romans 6:22 right now, that although we were enslaved by sin, “We are now free from the power of sin and have become slaves to God”!! Thank you Lord for already working in each persons situation. You are a Great God and worthy to be praised.
Thank you for wrapping us in Your arms. Thank you for your grace that we don’t deserve. Thank you for loving us enough to give your only Son in order to rescue us. Thank you for calling us, and giving us unconditional purpose.
We love you Jesus. Amen.